you, yes it's you

identity crisis

i identify myself as a designer. a product designer to be exact. yet, i haven't design anything in a while
i used to design furnitures, packaging, jewelry, even interiors. and houses. and illustrations too..
i miss designing..currently i take up jobs as freelance drafter, translator, teacher, anything i could get. i guess i'm so desperate for money hehehe

but somehow i feel my creativity has drained
and i begin to question, who am i?
what is my passion?
i feel kinda lost..

*sigh

stranded at kemang

i am sitting in this fastfood joint, waiting for time to pass by




ngapain sih gue?
tapi asik juga sekali2 ga jelas gini..hihihihi

let's go

i want to see the pyramids. of Giza and Nubia. and the Sphinx.
i want to see Himalaya. and go to Tibet.
i want to see the Colossus of Rhodes. The Parthenon and the temple of Apollo. the wonders of the old world that already vanished in their glory.
i want to see Hagia Sophia. i want to see what Byzantium left us.
i want to see Angkor Wat.
i want to see Macchu Picchu and all the meso-americans glory.
i want to see penguins.
i want to see everything.
i want to travel the world.
i want to travel the time.

will you go with me?

deadlock

i am a master student.
and i am currently on deadlock of my thesis.
and i lost interest on my topic.
and i am on denial.
and i should probably just die..
i'm on scholarship, so i have this moral obligation to finish my study..but oh well who am i kidding? maybe i'm just not as smart as i thought.

meanwhile, here's some happy tunes to keep us upbeat



..OR NOT!!

what is love?

last weekend i visited my bestfriend at Jakarta.

at some point, we talked about love.
well, don't all girls love to talked about love? ;)

and i asked her, what is love?

is it when we could explain why we love a person? when the pros outweigh the cons? and we could tell blatantly that we love a person because that person is kind, responsible, a hardworker, good-looking, share many interest and so on?

or is it when we couldn't explain why we love a person? despite the capital CONS, and we couldn't find a single explanation but because the feeling is just there, and we couldn't deny it, we couldn't pretend that it is not there, rooted deep in the corner of our heart, often the darkest one?

she argued that love is when we could explain why. that it is real and logical love. the feeling we couldn't explain is just lust. or persistence. or stubbornness.

but i said that love is when we couldn't explain why.

yet i don't have any argument to support my opinion. i couldn't explain why i think love is when we couldn't explain. maybe because we shouldn't think about love, we just have to feel it.

maybe because love is an instinct.

one friend of mine once told me "i only know what i feel"

and yes, me too only know what i feel..



is it?

after long hiatus

i love ADELE
her songs spoke right through my heart
i could totally relate :)