Thursday, February 9, 2012
oh memory, you're a douche somentimes
reminds me of a person and a phase of my life.
aawww, now i get all emo for some unclear reasons
hello
hello, 2012!
again a year passed by, and i'm still at the same place as the year before. 2011 was a difficult year, and judging from how 2012 started for me, i have little faith that things will get better.
meh, but life is full of surprises, i guess i might as well cross my fingers and hope for the best ;)
anyway, this is my third year of grad school. and i hit that deadline for my thesis review and judging. i have less than a month and i don't really make any progress since october. i do work with superhuman strength sometimes, specifically when i'm under pressure. and i kept waiting for that pressure to hit the urgency level to get my head going.
somehow, it never hits the urgent mark. somewhere in my brain someone whispers that it's okay to slack off, to not graduated in april, to get an E for my thesis, start all over again, add one semester and pay some ridiculous amount of money to the university that paid their teaching assistant (i.e. le me) well below the regional standard wages. *yeah i know, that someone is kind of an asshole*
not completing my thesis this month and having my thesis judged at first week of may will waste 6 more months of my life. and i will not be able to hold real job, means i will be broke for another 6 months. ah, dilemmas.. *still my stupid brain won't say it's urgent yet*
but my brain likes to surprise me sometimes :)
i guess it's too early to give up. GANBATTE PEW!!!
again a year passed by, and i'm still at the same place as the year before. 2011 was a difficult year, and judging from how 2012 started for me, i have little faith that things will get better.
meh, but life is full of surprises, i guess i might as well cross my fingers and hope for the best ;)
anyway, this is my third year of grad school. and i hit that deadline for my thesis review and judging. i have less than a month and i don't really make any progress since october. i do work with superhuman strength sometimes, specifically when i'm under pressure. and i kept waiting for that pressure to hit the urgency level to get my head going.
somehow, it never hits the urgent mark. somewhere in my brain someone whispers that it's okay to slack off, to not graduated in april, to get an E for my thesis, start all over again, add one semester and pay some ridiculous amount of money to the university that paid their teaching assistant (i.e. le me) well below the regional standard wages. *yeah i know, that someone is kind of an asshole*
not completing my thesis this month and having my thesis judged at first week of may will waste 6 more months of my life. and i will not be able to hold real job, means i will be broke for another 6 months. ah, dilemmas.. *still my stupid brain won't say it's urgent yet*
but my brain likes to surprise me sometimes :)
i guess it's too early to give up. GANBATTE PEW!!!
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